God of Mine
I was shocked when learned religion studies in Humanistic Studies class. Before the time to learn religion studies came, I predicted it would be like the other religion studies as what I have experienced. In fact, I found it very different than before. The topic forced me to reflect on myself whether I recognize well my God or just follow people before me. In this reflective paper, I try to define God whom I believe control my life and afterlife.
I am religious person. I feel that had been created by “something” which has great power that is Allah. I believe in Him through my study along my ages. As what class ever discussed, studying in a school is not a culture. On the contrary, the school can remove culture in such area. So, I do not agree if there is someone assumes that I live my religion life (include belief in God) culturally.
I know the role of God on His creatures that I represent into my belief. I do whatever my God asks to do. For example, He asks me to pray five times a day to show one of ways that how to remember in him. The remembering itself has big impact on me. If in a period of time I forget Him, I feel there is something missing from my mind. Just the opposite, if I bring Him in my mind in such period of time, I feel a great sobriety.
Before I state what kind of God I believe, I want to briefly analyze God from other religions. A God for Hindu people is uncertain. They have different God based on the area. For example in Bali they have “Ida Sang Hyang Widhi Wasa” or Brahman. They also have “Sang Hyang Widhi” or famous as “Timurti” yaitu Brahma, Wisnu dan Siwa. For Budha, God is has no name. Yet, they believe God is has power to control them. In Jews, a God is undefined yet. There is difference in calling their God between ancient and modern people. And for Christian, they have God that has different name and concept based on tradition and culture in such area. My opinion –guessing- toward those phenomena is how I believe in a God if the God itself undefined.
Well, God that I believe is still one, Allah. From the basic reason, all of Muslims in the world call Him with the same pronounce. Then, I recognize Him through His twenty compulsory and impossible natures. Furthermore, Allah is impersonal for me. We cannot assume Him like a person. For example, many of us ask why people let His creature misery if He is the true lover. To me, people who ask this question to Allah, has already thought Allah is same as ordinary people. I mean like this, if there is a person who helps someone. Absolutely the person has choice to forget his kindness or beg retain. Yet, is Allah like that? I cannot answer it because He has His right to do everything He wants.
This is true if the existence of Allah is not in a real form. Maybe it is the prior cause that caused many people do not believe in His existence. Although like that, I feel His existence in my thought and my heart. I cannot just think about Him by my head, or just by my heart. If I just think Him by my head, I will not find in Him in some areas of thought. Meanwhile, if I just use my heart to feel Him, I feel how weak I am. The weak is caused by I have a brain to think. So, I will feel know Him perfectly when I see Him both from head and heart.
In the end of this reflective paper, I want to conclude what I have explained above. First, as religious people, I do not accept Islam culturally because I have learned it since I was kid. Second, my God is still one-God, Allah and His perfect. And the last is I feel the presence of Allah through my “perfect” way, based on my head and heart.
Reference:
Imam Nawawi. (2010). Mengkaji Konsep Tuhan dalam Berbagai Agama. Retrieved on December 2nd, 2011, from http://syababhidayatullah.or.id/artikel/opini/703-mengkaji-konsep-tuhan-dalam-berbagai-agama
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